Suicide Bomber as a poor bastard

Man, this may be the first time I watched a suicide bomber giving his reasons and felt like I knew the guy. Obviously I don't know this guy, but you see this guy all the time in gaming communities and science fiction conventions. He's the guy who insists that he knows everything and gets very pissed when you don't agree with him. He's so damn openly emotional that you are afraid you're going to break him if you fight with him, but you want the best for him, because he reminds you of your worst moments. And you always want people to be at their best.

The difference is that he's dead because he went and FOUND HAPPINESS which is not the same as being happy or taking the steps to turn his life around. Like most young people, he thought that he could just get rid of all the horrible thoughts and need with one grand gesture. One of my best lines was "if I wanted to read a brainwashed moron, I would just read my own livejournal from 10 years back" and I know that embracing a particular religion or life choice or fantasy about the woman that will make it all better is attractive. But it's also bullshit.

This kid - he could have worked out his issues. You can see that he's really trying hard to be as happy as he claims to be - but he's angry. He could have been a peace maker. He could have been someone's dad. He could have been someone besides a guy that killed a bunch of people.

I guess I have more sympathy for this one because he was pulling off a suicide bombing against the Syrian regime. But he still killed civilians. Kind of hard to think that anyone in Syria could be considered a civilian with all the shit that's been happening. Saudi Arabian and Iran are practically fighting a civil war by proxy. Hell, if he had joined a less crazy group and died fighting, he would have been an outright hero. Fuck, he could have lived and come home and written his own Homage to Catalonia book (yeah, Syria is very much like the Spanish Civil War).

But shit. Poor bastard.